excitement: i am settling into a routine. i never, in the time that it takes a black hole to suck you in from beginning to end, thought that i would rejoice over establishing a routine. momma can expound for pages on that - as can husband. and they will.
Saturday morning. Conrad says: want do you want to do today?
Emily says: i don't know.
Conrad says: we should plan out the day so we have an idea.
Emily says: no, i don't want to plan anything. at all. let's just do whatever, whenever.
Conrad looks at Emily: oh it's one of those days.
7.5 months of marriage and he already knows. he's a fast learner. :)
point 1: my mismatched spirit of freedom and routine desires - needs - days without schedules. most importantly days of running random errands, actually creating something with my hands and moments of discovery.
point 2: my mismatched spirit of freedom and routine desires - needs - days with schedules. coffee, bible, write, remember i poured coffee, internet, drink the coffee which is now cold, errands, laundry, cook and make coffee again. i like this schedule. i like this routine. it establishes some sort of consistency in my life. moments of joy and randomness occur even in routine. and this makes me smile.
point 3: the Lord knows this of my spirit. i suppose my word choice is off - he doesn't mismatch spirits. he matches them perfectly.
i think it was the first Sunday in August Rabbi Adler, a Messianic Jewish Rabbi, preached a sermon at our church. the scripture - Psalm 8. i scribbled a note in the margin of my bible
my "mismatched spirit," my yearning for both routine and random, have been intentionally instilled in my heart; written there by the hand of God. who am i to then question this part of my personality?
as i begin to find joy in routine, i will remember the joy in the random.
"When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers--the moon and the starts you set in place--what are people that you should think about them, more mortals that you should care for them? Yet you made them only a little lower that God and crowned them with glory and honor..." Psalm 8:3-5 NLT